Monday, July 5, 2010

My Other Blog

When you were first diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, I started a blog called 'Sayinggoodbyetoyou'. It was a way I could express my feelings about your health and what happened as we coped with this devastating form of cancer. But, as usual, you were 'atypical'. Your pan can wasn't the aggressive, fast-growing cancer found in about 97% of all pan can patients. Yours was extremely slow-growing. In fact, yours stopped growing immediately upon discovery. You had a duodenal bypass and within a month after surgery you were eating regular food and regaining your strength. You started eating solid foods during Thanksgiving week. For three weeks prior to your surgery you had been losing about a pound of weight a day. I thought you were dying before my eyes.

I was there with you for the surgery, the chemo treatments, the CT scans, the doctors' appointments. I even went to your new cardiologist with you.

Now, we don't do anything together. Now we have restraining orders. I am spared the aggravation of your emails, phone calls and text messages. I don't know how your health is, but I think you are going to live a long time. And I will 'get' to pay you spousal support as long as that long time lasts.

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