Still Changing the Locks

So, I had never really feared for my safety with you. Or so I thought. But the locks were getting on my nerves. Randy had said I should contact one of those security companies. Suzin said I should put locks on the windows. Kyle said I should replace the locks. Ah, but they're expensive, and I didn't want to do that. Hmmmmmm.....one owner's manual was missing. The front door's technical writing had left something to be desired. But in time we waded through all the babble and found ways to change the codes. That said, I still didn't feel safe. Your behavior has been so angry and unpredictable lately. And you got so vicious and lied so fast. How far into crazy are you gonna go? I had some visions of waking in the middle of the night to see YOU standing over me with a big kitchen knife in your hand. I had visions of you holding back just one gun-----that's all it would take, wouldn't it? Just. One. Gun.------over my bed. It would be all over then. I still didn't feel safe. I put extra locks on. At night we put on the extra locks. Then I feel safe. Suzin found one gate that didn't have any kind of lock on it. I went out and bought a padlock.

I had already had an unplanned security check. By me. Three days after our court date I was singing in a show at church. My sister was here. I told her how to lock the front door and leave by the back after she got Dad and the caregiver out that evening because I had to leave an hour ahead of them. I would come home ahead of them, let myself in through the back door by using the keypad there, and then meet the three of them at the front door. But NO! I zoomed on home ahead of the three of them, went to the back door, and punched in the code. Nothing. I punched it in again. This had been the door for which we could not find an instruction manual. In order to solve that problem, you had taken the batteries out. The keycode could not be used. I didn't have a key. I looked into the house through the sliding doors. One window was open. I pushed it up the rest of the way, moved a chair out from under it, and went in, concert black and all. I was very pleased with my breaking and entering skills but not pleased with my lax security.

The next day when Laura and Kyle came over, we solved our security problems.